Breaking The Mould
When we have lived any amount of time, we become a person known to others. People expect certain things from us. We are that person. But what happens when you want to change? What happens when you want to do something unexpected and out of the ordinary?
I’m 54 and have plenty of ghosts following me around of the person I was and what people thought of me in my 20’s, 30’s and 40’s. What I find interesting is the weight I have put on those opinions and memories and how much I worried about what all those people would think of me now.
The thing is – no-one is really watching you the way you think. People may talk about me when they see my videos and wonder what happened, but the truth is – none of them were in my life to help me.
So why do I care so much?
I think it’s a primal thing about being accepted by your peers and becoming excluded from your group. But the group that I think I’m being rejected from doesn’t exist. None of these people of my past have been in my life for decades now.
I had an idea of what these people would think about me. It was embarrassing to put myself out there as an unsuccessful 54 year old woman who has worked all their life. I’m the loser amongst all the people I once knew.
But none of them were here helping me, advising me, protecting me, giving me encouragement and support. So what do I care what they think?
I don’t. Anymore. I did but now I don’t.
It is incredibly difficult to become the person that you want to become and do the things you want to do and ignore the overwhelming feeling of what people will think.
I hope that I will connect with people who are in a similar position or want to start something that they’re afraid to. These people are in my future not my past or present.
So if you’re worried about starting something or doing something that will enhance and improve your life but is different to everything you are or have done, just remember, your days are numbered. Use them to do what you want to and shake off what others might think.
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